Earlier today we were on the phone talking, discussing the importance of being spiritually connected with one another
The discussion led to disagreements about each other beliefs, the fact that its hard to see is cause we love one another
But one thing that you said that really caught my attention that I have to agree is the fact I don’t know who I am.
You are correct. I don’t know.
I’ve been suffering from self-identity since I can remember. I don’t know if it was when I was molested when I was young that got me tripping.
Trying to find some answers to some questions that I have mistaken.
I don’t know who I am and it hurts to admit that
I feel that I’m bipolar at times cause one-minute I’m saying this but then my actions show I meaning that
And its confusing at times cause I don’t know when to wear the different hats
I have created for myself to find acceptance for myself.
I say I don’t want to be popular but I’m always the first to talk to a group
I say I’m humble at times but when “Jax” comes out oh boy that’s the truth
so in order to figure out who I am, first I have to consider the facts
I’m a young black male, with a college degree living in Amerikkka.
That’s a known fact,
so that means I’m a threat to this society with a big target on my back.
I was born to two parents and my father passed away and that hurts cause I looked up to him for my guidance and my direction to figure out who I am not.
I know I want to change the world and music is the way to do it.
Exactly how am I’m going to achieve that? Well, that’s why I came to Full Sail to pursue it.
I know I’m spiritually disconnected and finding out the truth is what I want to do.
So far it’s been great and other times its been really confusing.
If somebody asks me, who is “Austin M. James”, I can tell them some things today but next week those things may change.
I’m on a personal journey to finally answer my own questions, the truth is what I’m seeking.
I think when I continue to say I’m looking for “truth”, deep down inside of me is what I really am meaning.